After much internal debate, I've decided to withdraw from my upcoming art show on February 6. If you keep up with me on here or on Instagram then you know I was set to be part of a group showcase held by RAW Artists.
This wasn't an easy decision to make, and I wish I could still participate, but the simple truth is that I'm not prepared.
Rather than running myself ragged raising money for prints, frames, and other things for the show while simultaneously trying to sell tickets to the event, I decided I should just not do it.
It might sound like I'm giving, up, but it's actually quite the opposite. I feel more motivated than ever to go after my art career, but this just wasn't going to go smoothly.
I'm not going to lie, I'm at a point in my life where I'm just trying to get my shit together. In fact, my main goal of this year (and this decade) is to simply get my shit together. And I've realized that a huge part of having a well-balanced life and achieving goals is being able to make tough calls, which is exactly what I had to do in this situation.
I signed up for this show feeling all jazzed and confident AF. My confidence has grown when it comes to my work, and so I decided it was time to start getting my work seen in other places other than Instagram.
I felt like I was making some progress as an artist, but then life slapped me in the face and next thing I know, I'm falling behind again. Things came up, bills had to be paid, and life just got more stressful in general.
As soon as shit hit the fan, I knew I might have to back out on the art show. I kept positive, though, thinking that I could still make it happen, but that's not how things went down.
You know the expression, "When it rains, it pours"? Of course, you do 🙂Well, that's precisely the kind of shit storm I was facing. There was just no way I could afford everything that came along with putting on an art show.
As hard as it was to face the fact that I had to turn back on a wonderful opportunity like this, I know I made the right choice.
And that's the thing, sometimes you have to take a step back to take a couple steps forward.
This isn't the first time I've had to do something like this either, but this time around, I'm not sulking. I'm not bitter. I'm not disappointed.
In fact, I'm actually happy.
I'm proud of the fact that I could make a tough decision (and a responsible one) without getting caught up in my emotions.
If this had happened say 1 or 2 years ago, I'd be spending at least 2 days brooding in my room, feeling uninspired. But this time it's different.
Maybe it's because I'm 30, and I'm getting a pretty good grasp on this adulting thing, or maybe my years of meditation and self-reflection is paying off and I can now enjoy a more zen approach to life. Whatever it is, I've changed for the better.
I don't look at this as a setback. I'm using this as an opportunity to regroup and keep it moving. This situation has helped me identify some things I'm missing (like prints) so I can focus on getting things in order before trying to be apart of any exhibitions.
It's also made me rethink my business as a whole. Right now, I have prints available, but it's all done with a print partner online. Now I know that I would rather work with a local business so I can have physical prints with me, giving me more control over my branding and products. So that's my mission now.
This whole experience gave more more direction in terms of my art business and what I want to accomplish. And hopefully, this little story from my life can help you look at your so-called failures as positive progress too.
Was there ever a time in your life where you had take a step back for the better? Leave a comment below and tell me all about it. I'd love to hear your story!